baggage.

so i have been watching the game show baggage on gsn and i started thinking about my own "baggage" and other peoples "baggage" and how much is too much baggage?

some people have strange baggage like "making your girlfriend wear a diaper in bed" or "i own 33 snakes"
some people have what i consider to be "normal" baggage like "i steal shampoo from every hotel i stay at" or "i wear footy pajamas to bed"

when thinking about what my baggage might be i thought that, i cant let things go, i have a great memory and i feel like i can only remember the bad things, i have a hard time communicating, in the winter my feet always stink, i refuse to date someone that doesn't have a promising future (i feel you should date your equal), i often wake up early and go to bed early, i care too much about dumb things, I'm afraid of elevators, and i tell my family everything.

whats your baggage? is it too much for someone to accept?

i am personally against a smoker, someone who always has to make themselves seem better than they are, someone who doesn't put effort into everything they do and someone who lies, cheats, or steals (other than shampoo from hotels, haha).

is this too much to accept? is this too hard to find? just something to think about.

new year resolutions.

i have had to think long and hard about this. there is always something that someone can improve about themselves but can there be too many resolutions?

there are the typical ones: lose weight, find love, keep your room clean, etc.

those are the ones that most of us have every year and we very rarely stick to them after a couple weeks.

this year:
id like to stop biting my nails so when someone looks at my hands they don't think about how manly my fingers look.
id like to completely clean my room(this may take a few days) and keep it clean so my mom doesn't have to yell at me every week about it.
id like to cherish the last couple months i have of me living at home.
id like to try harder my last couple months of high school.

how am i going to remember and keep track of all these things you may ask? well, i wont. I'm only human and I'm bound to forget, lose track, and just stop caring about some of these new tasks iv tried to challenge myself to do just like every other year. so i guess this year i should just have one big resolution.

my resolution is to let this year be a year of change. a year to change my body, my attitude, my thoughts. let this be there year i prove people wrong, get over tough obstacles, and be young at heart even though i will be entering adulthood.

hope every ones resolutions are ones that they can stick too and if you cant, then don't worry, your only human, your not perfect, and youll always have another year!

Shopping.

so today i went shopping and spent some of my gift cards i got for Christmas.

i start off in hollister only to find myself having to do math on my calculator to figure out tax, waiting in line for one thing, and being surround by a bunch of un-figured chicks that need to go eat a sandwich. as i got up to the counter i pull out my gift card to pay only to hear the cashier say that my item was one of the 2 items that were not on sale. i stood in line for nothing. i was truly counting on that discount. i left, shopped at a few other stores and found myself having better luck the next time i went in there.

on a lighter note, I'm watching sex and the city with a facial mask on and waiting with Noelle for our Tye dye best friend sports bras to finish! : D

day dreamer.

okay so i had to get this out there. iv always been one of those girls that looks through wedding magazines and wedding photos and say "i cant wait to get married". little did i know, it would be so hard to find a decent man.

i want the cake, the dress, the venue, the ring, the breath taking pictures, the oos the ahhs and the whole shabbang. but you cant have that without someone to share it with. it seems like the people that actually want a decent relationship with a normal man cant get it but the people who dont usually cherish it get it.

dream stealers.

sometimes i cant help but wonder if ill end up being one of those crazy cat ladies that sends a picture of themsleves in a christmas sweater that matches thier cats christmas sweater to everyone in their family as a "seasons greetings" and finds it to be normal.

everyone around me is in love and quite frankly im sick of it. im automatically the third wheel with ALL of my friends and then im suck sitting there all akwardly when they kiss good bye. i have married friends, engaged friends, and friends that you know will soon be engaged and then married.

i cannot wait till college to hopefully find the man of my dreams and live happily ever after.

stereotypical.

So first off, i feel like a stereotypical teenager with a blog, but hey, sometimes the best of us need to get things off our chest and what better way than announcing it to the world! you must also realize that i will never capitalize my letter "i" and i may not always be grammatically correct or spell words correctly and i honestly don't care. this is a place to be free and let go.

you may have noticed that my blogs name is "the gray area" this is simply because i feel like my life is a gray area. I'm very indecisive. i hate that about myself but it is what it is. maybe its my sign (Gemini) or possibly my genes. if i cant decide where to eat, ill text a couple people for some input. if you bring up politics, youll catch me having views from both parties, excetera, excetera.

well anyway enjoy yourself with reading about my interesting life! (: